a whole lot of baby making going on

but not here. seems like quite a few of the ladies out in blogland – as well as some i actually would know if i bumped into them – are either in the family way or making a concerted effort to get there. all of which i think is incredible. and amazing. i remember that desire. the impulse. the stress of it all. i will admit to be slightly envious. but only slightly. around these parts i feel like i have my hands relatively full. what with a seven year old who does not stop talking and two nearly fourteen month olds who rarely stop moving it is safe to say my days are just packed. m and i have discussed having more children. on many an occasion actually. mostly in passing. often after one of our brood has done something undeniably adorable. or we throw out name suggestions to one another like we need to have somethin waiting in the queue just in case. though as we all know it isn’t like one of us might just end up pregnant unexpectedly. coming from a family of five children m thinks two more would be ideal. i usually counter that one more would be a lovely addition. with less of the madness. i loved being pregnant. i mean it was terrifying at nearly every juncture. since it took so long to get pregnant i was consumed by a fear that i would not be able to stay pregnant. but i did. and it was incredible. i felt confident in my body in a way i never have before. and i grew two of the most amazing little humans ever. even with all of the attendant madness of newborns. and twins. and newborn twins at that. i would do it again in a second. but alas these days both m and i find ourselves thinking our family is complete. five is a good number. we have been so fortunate to have three beautiful healthy children. and that seems pretty incredible.

it was about day five of vacation that i think we both looked at one another over a lunch that included screaming by both wigglers. crying. vomiting. three dirty diapers. a spilled beverage. a missing shoe. food smeared down the front of a shirt. and two wardrobe changes. and concluded that three kids is definitely enough. in fact some times it is even more than enough. of course any decisions made under such duress are never truly valid but for now it appears we have a consensus. i am excited for everyone embarking on their journeys to have a baby. or another baby. or two. i hope you all get exactly what you desire. i will be sitting here on the sidelines surrounded by my phenomenal family. cheering you all on.