6 Nov

i have so many things to be thankful for. family. friends. having a home. and a job. and opportunities. it is easy to forget sometimes just what you do have in your life. hook and i headed to the library this morning. it’s one of the things we do together. and have done together for years. we talked about people who are less fortunate and may not have food all the time and don’t have toys or clothes to wear. the initial direction of the conversation was to reemphasize to hook that we have so much in the grand scheme of things and we need to always try to help better the lives of others when we can. i was hoping to provide a teachable moment for my boy and yet in doing so i was able to remember how fortunate we are as well.

the past week or so has been a plethora of wiggler appreciation. and anticipation. by others. we started receiving gifts via the mail early in the week and that has continued through today. when we learned that m’s sister – my favorite running partner (albeit from several states away) – orchestrated a one week shower to have gifts sent to us since there really is no convenient meeting place for everyone. and then early this afternoon my sister texted me and asked where i was. i responded in usual fashion – um, minnesota. she sent a picture of many members of my family gathered in ct for a surprise shower. they partied it up on our behalf. and shortly thereafter we went to a shower hosted by some of m’s friends from work. it was low key and lovely. and all of these amazing instances of generosity and the outpouring of love reminded me how very very fortunate we are to be surrounded – both near and far – by amazing people.

the subject of infertility came up with m and i. while it thankfully is not something at the forefront of my mind right now it is never all that far. i read blogs and wish and hope and pray for the success of others. i know what it feels like to think your chance will never come. i understand how difficult it can be for someone in the throes of IF to be around people who are pregnant – no matter how that pregnancy came about. and i know what it is like to feel like this is your last chance. and i can honestly say i didn’t know if i would ever be here. and i am so very thankful to be where i am right now. the costs and the odds felt so insurmountable for so long. and even now the constant concern that something will go awry does not dissipate. but it is unexplainable how grateful i am for how far we have come. and i continue to wish for the best and hope for the success of those still struggling.




One Response to “gratitude”

  1. Defining Family 6 SatUTC2010-11-06T23:05:47+00:00UTC11bUTCSat, 06 Nov 2010 23:05:47 +0000 2009 at 11:05 PM #

    Thank you for this post… Being in the deep end of IF I always feel reassured reading of the gratitude reachable on the other side. It’s been a really hard few days and this post has brightened my spirits. You recently passed on a huge gift to our family and we couldn’t feel more supported and grateful. So please know your best wishes are being well received at least in our infertility corner. Keeping you in my thoughts and sending love.

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