overwhelmed by nostalgia

12 Dec

the past few days i have felt immersed in last year. remembering where i was. and how i felt. and how hook was. and what m was doing. and the feeling of the wigglers kicking around inside of me. and the incredible amounts of snow. and dr appointments. and wearing slippers in the snow. and falling asleep in the rocking chair during teleconferences. walking on the treadmill in hopes of jump starting labor. missing one of my closest friends weddings because i was 36+ weeks pregnant and it was 4 hours away. remembering is amazing. it helps me see how far we have come. and allows me to appreciate where we have been. i was looking at pictures from last december and i am still dumbfounded that i was pregnant with twins. i had babies. two of them. it seems surreal. of course they are here. and they walk and babble. and smile and laugh. and turn our world upside down almost daily. but it still seems so far away. some days i want it back. those days of anticipation. feeling little arms and legs moving around inside of me. but i would not trade today for anything. today is a gift. two little humans. with very distinct personalities. who make my life so much fuller. and happier. and incredible. so i will look at the pictures and try to conjure up where i was. but i have a feeling it will be heavily influenced by where i am. in the midst of the best years of my life.

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2 Responses to “overwhelmed by nostalgia”

  1. AnOfferingOfLove 6 TueUTC2011-12-13T08:58:13+00:00UTC12bUTCTue, 13 Dec 2011 08:58:13 +0000 2009 at 8:58 AM #

    lovely post 🙂

  2. Kirsten 6 TueUTC2011-12-13T15:27:50+00:00UTC12bUTCTue, 13 Dec 2011 15:27:50 +0000 2009 at 3:27 PM #

    you communicate things so well.

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