panic

26 Apr

tomorrow morning i will be a plane. to california. to spend time with two of my very favorite ladies ever. i am excited to see them. talk with them. run with them. have a cocktail. watch the sunset. and just be for a bit. but i am also freaking out. i have never left my babies for more than maybe five hours at a clip. ever. and that hasn’t happened very often. i have no doubt m will take wonderful care of them. it has nothing to do with her parenting skills. it is my paranoia. about everything. hook was over 4 before i left him for a night. at first it wasn’t intentional but the longer i didn’t leave him the harder the prospect became. but now here i am. leaving the wigglers at 16 months. will they notice? probably not much. i will leave before they wake up. and be back on monday afternoon. really it isn’t too long. some circumstances have arisen that necessitate another trip away though. next weekend. another friday to monday adventure to the opposite cost. this one much less joyful. but necessary. i am panicking. about this weekend. and next weekend. and not hearing baby babble. and giggles. or getting hugs. i know i sound ridiculous. but panic isn’t rational. so i will just have to embrace it. hope for the best. enjoy myself. and i will be home again before i know it.

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4 Responses to “panic”

  1. strawberry 6 ThuUTC2012-04-26T13:35:26+00:00UTC04bUTCThu, 26 Apr 2012 13:35:26 +0000 2009 at 1:35 PM #

    They will be just fine. Enjoy your time away!

  2. meridith 6 ThuUTC2012-04-26T14:16:12+00:00UTC04bUTCThu, 26 Apr 2012 14:16:12 +0000 2009 at 2:16 PM #

    Those babies are going to be so glad to see you when you come back! I don’t know if this helps, but every time either D or I go away, the other person really has an amazing opportunity to bond with RR. My relationship with her is richer for our times alone together. I wouldn’t have thought that was necessary, but it balances things where they needed balancing and just make everything better. I hope you have a similar experience!

  3. tbean 6 ThuUTC2012-04-26T18:24:20+00:00UTC04bUTCThu, 26 Apr 2012 18:24:20 +0000 2009 at 6:24 PM #

    Deep breaths. It is going to be okay. More than okay, even. You are going to savor your time away. You are going to miss the kids like crazy but you are going to really enjoy your weekend. And the anticipation of the leaving is worse than the actual leaving.

  4. Jen 6 FriUTC2012-04-27T08:01:16+00:00UTC04bUTCFri, 27 Apr 2012 08:01:16 +0000 2009 at 8:01 AM #

    It will be ok and you know this but that doesn’t make it any better. Once you start running you will be more at peace. Once you get there you will see you can relax. Before you know it you’ll be home. I hope everything is ok with the second weekend away. At least the first one will be enjoyable.

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